Sitting in the brown, tweed recliner that was such a good trade of a $50 bill, I find a good place to seek Him. In a little while, He says to me, "You are Mine." I say back, "You are mine, too." I open the small devotional that my Auntie bought for me awhile back. It starts off, "I want you to be MINE."
.......Can you feel the wonder of it??...... I cry.
He is here; heaven bends to sit with me. He may be everywhere on the earth and in heaven, but He sits with me in a used, tweed recliner on a little farm, on a gravel road. It's not a cabin fit for a King, as He is, but He doesn't seem to notice at all. And do you wonder where to find Him over at your place, or where at your office, or where in your sick bed, or where in your head? Wonder no more, because He inhabits hearts and heads. He does. Where ever you are, He would be, too. Can you see it? You must open your heart and "He" will fill it; He will come to you and never leave you. He went to great lengths to make a way for this to be, and it amazingly happened through a Lamb (John 1:29).
I was remembering something that I read and never really understood. This part in that book that we all own somewhere on the shelf. Jesus said, "I only do what I see my Father doing." (John 5:19-20) And for me, today, I saw something that He does.
He says, "You are Mine".................. I want to do that, too. I look at their picture in the frame. It's the one I printed off from the website that has many pictures as you scroll down the page; hundreds. The little faces are all smiling, yet I'm not sure that they are all happy.
They are beautiful, the ones in the picture that I printed, the ones that we visited last week, those ones who took my breath away when I saw them for the first time, and then the second. I can say, "You are mine", and I will when HE lets me, because I see what He does and it is so good.
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Sunday, January 12, 2014
I walked down the hall just now in our little cabin and paused for a minute near the end. The hallway has taken on 11 extra feet and where there once was a small den- turned library, there is now a freshly painted, crisp white wall. Near the end of the new wall is something that I am mesmerized by....at the end of the wall is a doorway.
But this isn't the first new doorway I've encountered, lately....there have been a few. And the other day, while I sat in the recliner in the early morning hours and prayed, I saw, in my mind's eye, a tiny scaled picture of what has been going on around here concerning........doorways.
I was standing in view of a row of doors. My initial feeling was to leave them alone. My vantage point was cozy, comfy, and "known". I thought I 'd like to stay where I was. Those doors seemed to hold mystery beyond the twist of the handle. Mystery, maybe change, and situations that could be out of my control are not the most appealing for me; or least have not been. But, I am changing. He is changing me.
But why open those doors? Why not stay here where it is good-- and familiar?
In my prayer I drew into a new perspective and could see that I was standing in a hallway; it. wasn't. even. a. room..... And it came to me that although the hallway was nice, I was beginning to be drawn into opening those doors and walking through those doorways. And the epiphany came slowly that there was a great reason to open them, no matter what was on the other side. You see, I believed that opening them was a lot like opening a doorway to Jesus's heart....and HE himself would be there with his great pleasure, his hand, and his presence in full measure on the other side of the door --to walk with me through whatever I encountered there.
Now there is a reason to open the door!
And back to our house and the hall that got a little longer; we just keep walking down it and through the "doorway" and into that new room that we built for a small boy who we want to make our own. All of us do. We stand and stare at it, the new little bunk bed, the walls and windows. We look at each other, and we look at the room again....like it's some sort of cathedral or shrine. We are in awe and still discovering all of the dimensions to this "room beyond the door" ---the door we opened a while back....the one called ADOPTION......But, I can tell you that it is corner to corner, and floor to ceiling full of Jesus and the grace from God. You and I can open our doors with confidence....He is there.