Friday, May 17, 2013

The Sea and Me

A  while back I read A Gift From the Sea by Ann Morrow Lindbergh.  It was a few days full of deep sighs as I read.....some words just do that to some hearts.  I wrote a little as I read those few days and lately I've come back to add more.  Ann said:

 The sea does not reward those who are too anxious, too greedy, or too impatient.  To dig for treasures shows not only impatience and greed, but lack of faith.  Patience, patience, patience, is what the sea teaches.  Patience and faith.  One should lie empty, open, choiceless as the beach---waiting for a gift from the sea.
--Ann Morrow Lindbergh from A Gift From the Sea

  I see something bouyed in the waves. It is far off in the distance, but it is being drawn in by the tide, if I can just stay here and wait for it.  

What is it that I see?

Maybe that  He is the sea and the beach..........that is me.   For He does not reward those who are too anxious, too greedy.  No, one can not force His hand, find treasures He has buried from you or from me.... for now You can not take these gifts by force, or force of your will But wait for the Sea.

"One should lie empty, open, choiceless as the beach".  But I want my gifts. In fact, I'd like to order them myself.  No, nothing material..., but answers, answers,  to my questions. I want good work to do, I want promises kept.  I want reward before duty is done, I want choices and assurances in this life. I'd like beauty before ashes..I'd like character before struggle, and maturity before pain, I want to see what's ahead sometimes, but when "ahead" arrives in the now, I want to send it back to there. I want blessings and the kind of life that I had planned.

   Did you really say I should lie empty, open and choiceless? Choiceless because You make the best choices for me?

But what if He chooses "hard" for me.  What if I waited for my gifts from the Sea (who is HE) and they were covered with thorns, or if they were only opened through struggles, tears, and grief?  What if His gifts hurt and change me?  What if I loose my "identity" because of these gifts from the great Sea.  

And then I saw I was the beach and the beach was me, and the Sea, it covered over me, lifted me and drew me out with the tide.  I vanished in the choices, my chosen identity, my plans, my will, my gifts... just vanished into the Sea.  And I then was free. 

Proverbs 3:5-6

New International Version (NIV)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.[a]

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Go Home and Tell

“Jesus… said (to the man he had just cast demons out from),Go home to your own people and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how He has had mercy on you.” … ~Mark 5:19 ..............................verse shared and snagged from Ann's blog

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"O.k", I thought as I read the verse this Thursday morning.  "I have stories of mercy to share as well."   

Camping out under the umbrella of this great mercy covering me, and the "inward" me is dancing like the child I once was---- and sort of still am.  Outwardly I show my age, but inwardly I am getting this, "And he said: "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven (Mathew 18:3).  But we can enter this delightful Kingdom with child-like faith..and a child-heart that is soft to God.  It amazes me that I was even invited in........Me! and EVERY person that I've laid my eyes on in 46 years is also invited in to share relationship with one is left, no one ever has been left out of this invitation.  He is a generous Daddy.  But many will choose to stay away.   
some mercy...some blessing to me

 And because of this believing faith, our own bodies become a place where this amazing, life-interupting, plan making, door opening, earth shaking, gentle speaking, heart comforting Father will live.... (1Cor. 6:19) will live in us. ♥ You might have heard that He used to live in a temple....but those days are over.....He would rather live in us.  And with those thoughts I have my first cry of the is just too wonderful for words, isn't it?  

my mercies

So, to tell you of his mercy to me as I began to do earlier is to tell you of a young person who was going their own way, trying out the world for what it was and then being drawn in by a pursuing Father (God)who brought me to the place where I could clearly see that to lay my life out to Him would be the decision that would make everything right with my world.   So, I began to know Him from there, and little did I know how sweet it would be.  And then His mercy carried me through life up to here and along the road, good things came!  And along the way there were deep hurts, losses, relationships that sour, times when unforgiveness found a place in me to stay awhile, there was gripping fear on the road, disappointments, pain, sin.......The tough blending with the great and good and the bad. 

 What I can tell is that because of this mercy, the road is always leading HOME and the light of love is always turned on for us, and the bad always leads to good, and the hard is always swallowed up in joy in the end.  This is just a part of this mercy that I've known and yet there is always MORE! 

There is always more. ♥