Reading in the gospel of John, I keep coming back to this story:
So, Jesus was with his disciples and knowing that he is soon to be betrayed, he crosses over the Kidron Valley and into the garden/olive grove, where he and his disciplines had often spent time. Judas, had decided to betray Jesus for money, knew that he would be there, so lead a group of soldiers out to find Jesus. And when they find Jesus, who was expecting them, Jesus says to them, "Who are you looking for?"
One of them answers, "Jesus the Nazarene."
~And this is the part that is punctuating my day ~
Judas, the betrayer, stood with the military force. As Jesus spoke, "I am the One", the forces fell back on the ground. (John 18:6)
............. "THEY. ALL. FELL. DOWN!" They fell down at his voice... a mere hint of the power that was at his disposal, yet was being withheld.
And Jesus had to ask them again, "Who are you searching for?" I'm assuming He had to ask again because they were all groping around on the ground! It was dark, they were carrying torches and weapons. They were stunned, surely fearful, and confused as to what just happened to them!? I wonder if they questioned whether they should even be there at this point, whether it was safe to lay their hands on Jesus since He was obviously in possession of some awesome power. Maybe that is why they shackled his hands and his feet even though he went with them willingly.
I grope on the ground as well. But not because I am experiencing that power like the soldiers did, but because I forget that it is there. And I grapple with my issues and struggles and wonder how I can fix things that are broken around here, how can I figure out the answers to great problems, how do I make good things happen, how do I defeat the enemies in my life?
And my eyes glance up to the sentence above in red: "I am the ONE", He says. And I see Him standing there in my minds eye with all of the power in the universe in reserve. And if He didn't defeat His enemy at the seemingly most opportune time for Himself, but let them have their way with Him for a greater good (an understatement), then I don't want Him to do any less for me. It's good to imagine Him holding back His strength and His power to save me in my struggles because He knows the timing is not yet right. Oh, He will save us in our troubles -- He will always come through, but knowing Him better is trusting Him more and giving ourselves to His timing and plan.
But, today I'm loving imagining how those soldiers all experienced His power that way before they laid their hands on Him to take Him away. He was in control and He reminded me that He ever is.♥